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.The Lord made me hard to handle.
07 October 2009 @ 02:23 pm

I'm so mad at my mother right now I could spit.

I could do more than that.

.The Lord made me hard to handle.
07 October 2009 @ 01:22 am

I have yet another dog...only this one's the heeler I've always wanted. That doesn't mean I'm going to get my butt any less kicked, though Sydney and I came up with an elaborate story that just might appeal enough to my mother's bleeding animal-lover heart that she'll let me keep it and take care of grandma.

His name's Elvis, and he's quick as a little pistol already. Such a smartie...I'm in love.

Sydney and I went to Hagerman so she could see Michael (Dusty's friend that I absolutely adore) and there were a bunch of other guys there and they all had horses at this indoor arena. I ended up hijacking this old-as-dirt paint to doodle around on while Sydney and Michael were talking about whatever, then this absolutely gorgeous boy named Trevor (who had the heeler puppies) hops off this equally gorgeous palomino he's turning into a rope horse and tells me to climb on and put him through his paces. Both of them were dolls, but Trevor has a girlfriend and somehow every one of them knew Dusty has "staked a claim" on me, so they put it. I guess that's a good thing, especially since he's having a little freakout about this "thing" we have and doesn't know what he wants yet.

But at least I get to hang out with sweet, attractive cowboys and I got a good dog out of the deal.

Now to make sure I don't get skinned alive...

.The Lord made me hard to handle.
01 October 2009 @ 04:47 pm

My mother is driving me crazy.

.The Lord made me hard to handle.
29 September 2009 @ 01:16 pm

We ordered hay a month ago so the guy would have plenty of time to deliver it before we ran out, and the ass never showed up. Now we're completely out and he won't answer our calls. We think it's because the last time he came out so G-ma could give him a check, he started saying nasty things about gay people and how the newspaper is turning into a "fag soapbox" and started preaching that god hates them and whatever else nonsense he felt like he had to say, until my grandma very calmly and collectedly told him that her daughter (my aunt) is a lesbian and she would appreciate it if he'd not say those kinds of things under her roof.

The least he could do is act like a professional and give us notice that he's no longer going to be selling us hay instead of just not showing up so our horses don't get fed. But the horses are out grazing in the yard and we've made arrangements to pick up some hay from elsewhere tomorrow. People are sincerely stupid, and it's amazing how the more Christian someone claims to be, the less tolerant and accepting they are.

.The Lord made me hard to handle.
26 September 2009 @ 08:38 pm

I've just realized how ridiculously oblivious to the obvious I am sometimes, and I hate that about myself. I wish I could just let life happen sometimes...it always works out better than when I'm a stubborn control freak.

.The Lord made me hard to handle.
22 September 2009 @ 06:53 pm

I roped off of Maxz today.

I'm so effing stoked right now.

.The Lord made me hard to handle.
16 September 2009 @ 08:34 pm

I have Adam, Jessy, Kylee, and Dusty texting me all at the same time and I'm starting to lose track of what conversation I'm having with whom except Adam. Lord, what have I gotten myself into?

But Adam just called me from the Toby Keith concert in Memphis while he was playing "Whiskey Girl." Sometimes it's hard to not to miss him...

.The Lord made me hard to handle.
13 September 2009 @ 07:25 pm

Jessy's been giving me the silent treatment above and beyond since I told him I'm starting to like him...I'm talking above and beyond his usual horrible lack of communication. I finally just told him I don't really care what his issue is because I'm perfectly okay with being honest with myself and everyone else, and he can do with the information what he likes...I'm going to live my life anyway.

He can act like a rotten, womanizing sleazeball roughstock rider if that's the kind of life he thinks he wants to live because the consequences are his to deal with.

.The Lord made me hard to handle.
12 September 2009 @ 09:33 pm

I may have just totally EFFED the perfect situation.

But if it was so "perfect," why did it drive me so crazy?

.The Lord made me hard to handle.
11 September 2009 @ 10:39 am

Adam texted me today and told me that we're getting a quickie marriage before he goes to Afghanistan, but we're not going to tell anyone about it.

I said HELL no. I told him he had the chance to marry me and he took it for granted...I deserve more than that.

Plus there's only one reason anyone wants to keep their marriage a secret, and I'll be damned if I'm going to enable a cheater.